Huggy anon where are you I need you come back we need to catch up!
He called me a dweeb yesterday! I hadn’t even known people actually said that! But, then he said I was an adorable dweeb and he loved me and I swear in that moment I was too happy to think.
I really hope he doesn’t leave my side. He actually listens to me. He holds me like I’m as fragile as a feather is light. He knows me better than I know myself sometimes. His kisses make me blush. His voice saying my name sends shivers down my spine in a pattern I’d call lovestruck, honestly. And, well, he’s really funny and his hair is fluffy and he’s warm and stuff and even though I’m silly he still loves me and keeps me around…
Three people TODAY have told me that I can do better than my current by and I cried running thinking about it. Maybe I could. He could do better for sure! Thanks, guys, now I’m even more afraid he’ll dump me…
But here’s the kicker: it’s not an open relationship. Here’s another kicker: he initiated this decision.
I was really surprised. I still am.
He’s been really considerate and understanding about my various insecurities and I really… I really like that. Makes me like him even more than I already did. And, well, he’s warm, and he likes to cling to me like a lonely puppy and I’m not complaining in the least I love the warmth and the attention.
… Rudy asked me to be his girlfriend on Monday morning.
It’s not even 2AM Wednesday morning and so many people know that we’re dating and it really freaked me out because people are talking about me and not to me and the people who are talking to me are asking questions that I can’t even answer yet because wow I’ve been in a relationship for less than two days I don’t know anything about where we were going….
Let me stop now before I become the girlfriend that just gushes and gushes and then gets all emotional bluhhhhh I dont want to bother people with that kinda thing I’m so sorry already
im too lazy to even fini
awkwardly peruses tumblr while in public
I feel so dirty
Wowee zowee I’m on an actual computer on tumblr right now it’s so surreal.
I miss this so much, too much even…
Whatever okay back to whatever I was doing carry on
I can’t wait to turn eighteen and move and just be gone and never come back goodness gracious
So now she’s going to say she’d “appreciate the help” well I’d appreciate being asked without stupid attitude like no bug off with that mess I’m too done with her I’m fricken sick of her and her side of the family it’s over I never want to talk to any of them ever again seriously
This is some bullshit. We’re fucking homeless because my mom “was raised to do everything on her own” even though she’s not alone in the fucking least but oh wow now she can’t do her fucking laundry without my help like are you kidding me no maybe if she asked nicely or were just less of a cunt about shit I’d happily oblige but damn all she does is yell at me now for no good reason and I’m not about that shit seriously