goodness gracious I’m really bad at confrontations I’m already on the verge of crying.
I shouldn’t be allowed to exist with such amazing people when I’m such a low being myself.
ask-and replied to your post: ask-and replied to your post: I GOT THE GUITAR…
Sure…?
Good. The music has been sent<3
I don’t know what’s going on, but my fear is gone.
Now, I just want the problem to be revealed so, I don’t know, I can try to fix it.
Or, I could just wet my pants.
Never mind!
I couldn’t wet my pants if I wanted to.
I’ve liked a guy for two years.
I never gave up.
Never wanted to.
Until today.
Now, I know for sure that I haven’t a single chance.
Not one. Not ever.
I just can’t believe it took two years for him to finally let me know that he has not one interest.
Then, to make it even better, he wonders why I’m upset?
But, hey, you love that other girl, so all luck to you.
I hope you two stay together forever.
All happy and whatnot.
With the cuddling and the giggles.
Oh, who am I kidding?
I can’t let go.
I won’t let go.
But I have to.
I know I’m just whining but, this time, I can’t help it.
I’m genuinely hurt.
My heart is beating off.
I’m shaking as if it’s my form of breathing.
My eyes are red, my face strained into a tear-stained smile.
Before I let go, though, I have to tell him.
Everything, this time.
Every word I didn’t say.
Every feeling I didn’t tell him about.
If I’m falling over the edge, I can’t be weighed down.
After that, I’ll be over it.
I promise.
I expect nothing. No expectations means no disappointments. I’m sorry. I can’t help being myself around people I trust. You may not want me around, but just know that, even though it was a short time I got to know you, it was a good time. Never have I smiled more, honestly. But, now you’re gone. It’s all my fault. I know that. I wish you’d come back one day.Though, I know you won’t.
